Last day of life

WOW guys!

This is seriously my last day of real life. I won't get any time to be creative if I won't plan like a freaking
Weardo. You know planning a time for every time.

15:45 being home from school.
15:47 eating a carrot. (it's good for my eyes)
15:50 getting my room all feng shui , which means dumping clotes in my wardrobe, and putting old socks under my bed.. I'm not good at cleaning up.

16:00 Glee music on.
16:03 Getting all my homework stuff on a stack.
17:00 being done with only the home work!
18:00 LEARNING
18:23 takin a bathroom break.
19:00 checking out my sister on TV
19:36 eating a carrot. (I all ready said it, they are good for me.)
20:00 doh my favorite soaps.
20:30 being sure I studied good enough.

Then! at nine  I get the feeling I have to do something artistic. I got a pencil. But can't think of something to draw. I got my laptop, but can't write cause I would make freaking garbage of the thing I work on for 6 months. NO INPIRATION!

It's always the same! My head is to tired to be outside the lines. And if I won't go out of lines I would never started Broken Strawberry.

You know I'm just really affraid that school is gonna hold me from doing stuff I love. Things I have to do to not get depressed. Cause I can't spend a long time without writing, it became an adiction.

Guys, which thing in live ever stoped you to do what you love, or where your good at?

I mean, I would never stop study for art I know that. But I can't just let it outside my live, because I want to help kids with cancer. It's just not possible.

This is it, I have to sleep, my last day of really doing whatever I wanna do. And I'm affraid of the time that is coming.

love you readers,
Quinn